Thursday, August 26, 2010
I just realized I have come to view my life in terms of "types of days". For example, today was one of those very high pain days- a "codeine day". The good news is, my energy level was good, my stiffness was low, and my mind was pretty clear. In terms of the several types of days I tend to have, this is a pretty good one-- better than most. The pain is difficult to bear until it is under control, but it does respond well to the codeine. Although I am not painfree then, I am highly functional, (with a tendency to overdo things and regret it later.) I have had several days in a row of not being able to stay awake much, sleeping all day, then up from 1 a.m. (or so) until around 8 a.m., and then back to sleep again. I get very frustrated with myself on those kinds of days. I especially hate the brain fog and the feeling I should be accomplishing something, although I can seldom think of what. I ususally feel a great deal of guilt, and yet I know it is beyond my control, and that I needn't feel that way. I realized I was neglecting taking my iron, and I have been anemic recently, so I wonder if my feeling better is related to taking iron? I have felt especially pleased with my progress on some art projects. I find myself creatively energized. I love that. In fact, I think this is a good time to go to work on the collage alphabet book I am doing.... Later Gators!